The unexpected

Briana, my little sister, arrived in town on Saturday and it has been great having her here. We've been cleaning, nesting and working on my townhouse to sell. Okay so she has been cleaning etc...I have been giving direction for the most part. Ha!

Sadly she has not been witness to a brand new baby and neither have we, so today she and I went for what I think is my 6th ultrasound. (David is getting in as much work as possible since his company is no longer paying for vacation days). According to the ultrasound "little Ms. Peanut" is 9.1 pds give or take a pound. The doctor took her own measurements and she believes the baby is even larger, closer to 9.5 or more. Now at this point in the exam we are still talking natural birth, nervously, but I'm still thinking its doable. After the exam though, unexpectedly we're talking induction and/or c-section.

Seems my cervix has not changed at all in 3 weeks. No forward progress! The thought is the baby maybe too large to progress any further or I may be too small. We know the baby is in the right position and right at the cervix opening but the opening is closed tight as a drum, to be very frank.

Induction and c-section I was not prepared for, so after much talk with the doc she sent us home to think on it. I've consulted with my doula, sister, mom, a nurse, my father, other moms and my husband. I have concluded that with as much work as I have done around the house, walking and using the birthing ball, even at work, we should be further along than this. If I wait until next week to see if everything progresses naturally she'll be about half a pound bigger than she is now. If I get induced then I will need an epidural and I may deliver fine or I may not progress but so far and have to have an emergency C-section. More drugs on top of drugs, bad for baby and Momma. So then c-section, just cut me open and bring her out. I take on all the risk and the baby is at much less risk. So I make a date and she's born. That's not the delivery I was hoping for but so far it seem the most logical, I think. I think, I will sleep on it and consult the Man upstairs. More tomorrow.